Happy Septemeber

Sep 3 2024

Hey how is it going? I been good. My son wanted Alfredo today so i made that and suprised him. My mom helped me cause my Tremors are back again. Its not easy doing some tasks but i try to embrace it, i just don't want to cut myself.Today i felt a little sick cause i am taking my diabetic pills. I really hate that they make me feel so sick. ITs like i just want to be comfortable and i can't really enjoy just being here in my cornor lol. I got to see that new movie on netflix its called "The Deliverance" its based on a true story and its really good.. So check it out. I know i need to add that one to pineapple dream. I just feeling sick from the pill i feel so tired from it. Then my Anxiety has been extermely high. Like i feel trapped in my own body. I start to feel like i can't breath and by then its alerady a Panic Attack. This is another reason why i can't date anymore cause i got social Anixety and among other things. But I just been hanging out with my mom more cause shes having the same problem so i try to sit with her and make her laugh and just be there cause i understand. I also have been pretty busy Drawing And i think i might make a site with all my drawings. Try to make it like a side show where u can just go through the pictures i have drawn. I know i told you uys i had been drawing. But now im doing people. Like so far i have done, Britney spears, joey king, marilyn monroe and some other Actresses.. Im just going through alot of tutorials to learn a little here and there so i can make some of my art look decent lol.. The hair and the eyelashes are Probably the worse to draw for me. I try to do one everyday so i can look at the process of how its either getting better or worse lol.. Well when i was in highschool I took Art classes and I even have Drawn faces everytime i got a chance. I wish i could find some of my own art. That would be cool. I remember my frist Husbands mother told me i could draw pretty good and i should do something with it. But i never really took it seriously. The one that could draw really good was my brother. I never Really thought i was that good or really gave it a chance ya know. When i had kids I gave up alot of stuff. Like webdesign and art. But now i am really enoying it and i got into it to where i don't even know what time it is lol.. Last time i stayed up till 3am and i was like whoa. Didn't even pick up my phone not once. Just set it up on some music and heard music i never heard of lol. I was really into the drawing.. I really enjoy it.. I was wondering if anyone has the new galaxy zflip 6? I want to change phones.. Ive already had iphone for the past 7 years and want something new. But debating if i want to switch.. I feel like if i change i'll regreat it lol.. I am a die hard iphone fan. The fact that nothing has happen to my phone it has really last me for a long time. It should last long after the fact how much you spend on it lol. Or should i just wait till next year..I guess if i dont really like it i can always go back to apple. But i don't know. Anyways im gonna get going. Gonna go watch something and relax.. Talk soon!

this month went fast

Aug 23 2024

hey whats up? i know its been a while sine i blogged. i had been feeling nervous for the past month and couldnt really sleep any cause of it.. so during the day when i was super tired id slee[ a little here and there.. some days its rough but thats ok.. This week my mom got sick with covid i dont even think its that anymore but they gave her some meds and i been helping her around the house. ive been cooking, cleaning atleast trying to help her with task like washing dishes and other things.. ive been a little more tired.. Today i went to get her meds from the store and got some food at taco bell and she ate a little..Now today my dad had fever and hes been coughing none stop so im thinking hes next.. trying to make sure they all take there meds. i dont want to be sick so i hope i dont get it.. but i do have some meds there incase i get sick.. i just felt like i couldnt breath somi used my pump to help me a little.. next week is my mims birthday and my brothers bday.. I can't get over the fact that this month is almost over.. I logged on to my ipad tonight to blog cause i didnt feel like bringing out the laptop and mess with it.. soo i been drawing again on my ipad and i got some new layouts coming up.. lets just say i have enough layouts to last me a few months lol.. I started drawing people but eyes,hair and things like that are a little hard.. im trying though.. I been watching tutorials on how to draw hair and i got the idea but um it still dont look right lol.. guess it takes a while to master that.. but atleast im trying.. i love my ipad even more cause i can talk up drawing.. lets see what else is new. oh yea i cleaned up this room the other day and now everything is nice and neat. I even decided to remove my dogs cage and throw it outside lol it was taking up to much room and now shes been out of it for a few days and at times she goes to her cage and im like its not there baby. but she has been doing wonderful and she sleeps with me all night and no problems of course i tend to move alot during the night when im either listing to music or drawing i either sit up, lay down and then move to much lol.. But i take her to the store with me and i ask her like are you ready to go to the store and she gets excited to go.. I really need like a swing to put her in cause even though shes like 8ilbs she tends to get heavey for my arm.. But i thought she would bark at people and no she dont do that like she behaves when i take her.. shes my support baby. like shes not even trained for that but its like she knows what to do ya know.. I need to get groceries for the kiddos so im making a list of things i need to get.. my son is like mom i want outside food and i said i know we will get some.. taco bell has been our spot for this month. We found some things we all like. My daughter tried the hottest package and she hated the flavor shes like its not even hot lol..ofcourse shes use to eating hot stuff. anyways that pretty muchs sums it up.. oh and my brother got a new house its like the next street over. might even be behind us not exactly sure havent seen it yet.. anyways i guess that pretty much sums up with whats going on.. talk soon😁

H A P P Y F R I D A Y !!

Aug 10th 2024 at:10:03pm Mood:Tired

It's been a long as day. Got up Early To go Grocery shopping and found these tiny bananas lol i bought them just to trick my son. So funny his reaction. Anyways then i had to watch the dogs cause we had someone come over and try to fix the washer but i guess he must need to go to the store for a part Cause he didn't come back. Then after he left my mom said lets go get my Nephew some clothes for School. So did that but im just soo freaking tired. We just went to walmart and the shoe place. Came back and started to work on this layout. I wanted something a little different then what i normally do. Well this is what i came up with. I drew the design on Procreate Just messing around to see what i can come with and then sent it to my email and opened it back up to photoshop and I picked out the font i needed or wanted and whatever looked nice. I set that up then went back to Procreate and did some touch ups and Finished it. This one took about 5 hours. Between going to the store and coming home lol. My hands hurt. I love how it came out though. I cant wait to draw something for Halloween. I finally got some ideas i want to use and trying to get back into drawing again. Although its hard since my hands do move cause of tremors but im trying to take my time :D. So anyways my work paid off. I really hope you like this new layout and love the header. Drop me some feed back. Anyways im gonna get going im just going to change the colors of the cbox.. Before i forget my dad is doing great and everything cleared up. There for The Power of Prayers are really working.. Goodnight!

I am soo Very Tired today.

Aug 7th 2024

Well today School started. Im not ready to get up in the mornings. Im not cut out for it lol.. Although i couldnt sleep last night so i feel Exshauted. I picked up a new show on AMC+ its called the The Discovery of Witches and its really really good. But so far there is only 4 seasons. Im on the last one so i hope there will be another one coming. I really like it so far. My Music this month has been Selena Gomez and Justin Bieber and Recently just heard Selena Gomez got Engaged. Im so happy for her. Lets see this morning had to take my dad to get more test done. They are saying he was Fluids in his brain. Which is why he is forgettting alot and some days its good and some days he is in a mad range like this morning he was yelling at my mom. It puts alot of stress on her and he don't see that. So trying to calm him down is hard. Hes getting older and He is forgetting alot latly and everything is changing so it sucks. But over all we are pretty good. Just living and i have to go grocery shopping tomorrow. Hopefully we stock up on food. Oh and i got Birthdays coming this month too. So Gotta think about that. Anyways just wanted to blog and let you know that im doing ok.. Like i said just living life.. Talk soon!