Can't believe its December

Dec 5 2024

Can't believe we have a month to go before new years.. That is crazy i think this year went pretty fast and for me to catch up im not ready. Honestly not that excited for Christmas this year. Im struggling. I do what i can for the kids but every year as they get older they ask for new things and they are expensive. Trying to save money cause these year they are both asking for the Steam Deck. My son already got his and now i just have to get my daughters. Its just so expensive now like nothing is cheap anymore. Every where its just way to much for the things they want. They understand which is cool but they are kids so they always think i am rich lol. And at that age who really thinks about money lol you just seen things you really want. I know i was there alot of time growing up. I wanted computers, laptops and I remember one year i wanted a nano Those where in back then even my ex got me one for Christmas one year and i had that thing saved with music afther about 5 years later he asked if he could have it so he could use it to work out and I was like go ahead and take it I wasn't using it anymore. So He ended up taking it and using it. Probably doesnt even have it anymore lol. I as like all my music and pictures where stored on that thing. I gave it to him with all of that on it lol.. But yea and then i think he bought me a phone and ipad I think i can't remember He pretty much spoiled me but Like i was telling my friend that he is a good provider but the only thing that was wrong with him was that he was Verbal abusive. Wish things could have been better but those are things i remember. Like the other day one of the dogs threw up and i asked my son if he saw anything and he said no. Well i ended up finding out it was in the hallway i was gaggy lol and my son came out and he said Where is it at. Im like its there and i said im not gonna pick it up cause my stomach turned and i just don't have the stomach to pick it up. So he said i'll be right back. Well he Picked it up with no problem LOL and it made me laugh cause his dad would do the same thing when i said i couldnt do it, he never complained he would just go pick it up. I got a mini him now. He acts like him but he is more like me in other ways. He raised my Daughter and thats not her dad but She picked up on things that he does like, Share foood and eats pizza with ranch and thats how he use to eat his pizza lol..Probably still eats it like that to.. But Just Memories like that have stuck with me afther about 10 years i think its been maybe longer. I stop counting lol. Yesterday was super cold and My dad had a ct and a MRI scan yesterday. I thought it was going to take forever but it was pretty quick we where out of there an hour. Me and my mom got talking about that Series "From" and What we think might be happening. Ive heard some Thoreys and they make sense. I told her we have to wait till 2026 to watch season 4. Im like i don't know why they are making us wait that long.. By then we might crack the code lol.. If you havent seen it. You MUST see it. They say its the most scareest show but its not scary. Its good so many puzzles though.. If you ever seen "lost" thats another one i think im gonna try and re watch that one. Anyways the chickes have been making eggs almost eceryday so free eggs is good and ofcourse fresh eggs are the best.. Anyways I am going to add some facebook covers while i am done bloggin. Talk soon!

Happy Thanksgiving to you all from all of us.

November 28th 2024

Its been a long week. It started off my dad being sick and then He kept seeing blue and we are not sure why but his eyes where all good they are just not sure why he sees blue sometimes. So Going back to the doctors and getting stuff done. All next week My dad has apointments all over again. Hes gotta check for his monthly testing. I am more then sure everything is ok. But he has to be chcked regardless.. So I moved on from desiging phone wallpapers and i been working on facebook covers and i drew about 50 of them. I will try and upload those Maybe tomorrow or Friday. Well see though. I am also Going to go over what Sub domains i want to keep. I like them all but i want to get rid of some.. Having to do like 10 layouts is insane lol.. Maybe i'll combine them all. Well see anyways My mom didnt want to cook thanksgiving so we are all going to go eat at a buffet with the family.. Well just my brothers and i and my mom and dad. But i hope you all have a save thanksgiving. talk soon!

Wow Thanksgiving is next week..

November 20th 2024

I can't belive that this month went pretty fast.. My daughter already asking when do i get paid lol she wants to try a new place out. They have pizza there so we might try that out at the end of this month anyways. My dad felt Dizzy and started throwing up so we watched him and made sure he was ok. It wasnt looking to good for him and my mom said this morning she thought she was gonna have to call 911. Hes not really eating that great cause he has no teeth so its very hard for him to eat food. So The VA sent him those insure so he can have something in his stomach. He just might have to go back to eating soups and i was thinking the other day that he might have to eat baby food. Just so he is able to eat something. My son asked if he was going to fix the sink so he did that yesterday and my son helped him do that but got worried about it. Hes ok we just have to make sure one of us is near by incase he falls or can't get up. He started to use his walker and he is very stuburn about using it. He doesnt think he needs it but he does. We are all getting older so we need the help to get on by. He is gonna get those handicapped tags and everyone seems to be excited to use that lol.. So i think my dads gonna get on his truck and then on my brothers incase they go somewhere he has one.. But everyone wants to park in the front lol.. I hate to see them getting older but i am also glad that i am around to watch them get to stores and ect. Making sure they put their card up and don't forget. I have a habit on asking whered u put the card at.. Anyways I felt sick yesterday like all of sudden i couldnt move I dunno if its cause the day before yesterday we made califorina rolls and its really not filling when u eat those you have to eat like 20 or so just to really get full on it. I think my brain was like well u didnt eat so u need to eat to feel ok. I eat later in the day and then seemed to be ok so i guess it was that..Then today my mom said she felt sick so i told her to get some ginger ala its good for burping and that seem to help her little but she was feeling it this a while ago before bed. I told her we need to get candy to suck on when we feel that way. Atleast for nauses. I found some amazon so i will buy some when i have money to have tha ton hand for them both.. I wish the doctor priscribed me something for that cause no matter what day i tend to have that issue and its so uncomfortable. I guess when i am gonna do is probably buy some chewable so that i can always have on hand for that. Days are going by Pretty fast. I can't beleive that we have 35 days before Christmas and im not looking forward to Christmas this year. The kids hit me with they wanted a new cansole and im like oh boy. She wants one and he wants one $700 all together.. Why does things cost so much? Im like if i get u that you will have only one gift and thats it. Well see ..If his dad buys him one and then i can buy her one and everyone is happy.. Anyways I decided to put up 35 wallpapers. I like making them but im wondering if they should have their own page hmm.Well see if not i'll just leave them here. Well thats all im gonna talk about. Hope yall is well and take cre ;)

Saturday...

Nov 16 2024

I first Orgnized the links to the wall papers, I added more Phone wallpapers for you guys. Working on more But for now i was able to add 2 more pages on the Quotes so there is more colorful ones. Gonna try to add as much as i can every week.. So far they all look good. When you click on them they will be bigger. Well today was another busy day. Had to fill our jugs of water to last us. We need our water :).. Helping my mom decided what else we should make to sell. Dads Losing his memory which sucks but he is going to see someone but it won't cure it but it'll help him. Its just so sad to see him that way. I look at old pictures and it just makes me sad of how much he has come and what he has been through. He has always been a very strong man. Im just Glad no matter what he is here. Thats all that counts and i am here to help as much as i can. Everything is something new. We have to go into town again and Get dog food. We are almost out. But yea my mom made chili today and we eat it all lol it was good. It was cold the other two nights and then now its like in the 70s but since the house sits up high its a little cooler up here. Ofcourse i got my Window and my Fan on lol couldn't sleep with out it. I started to put my dog back in the cage..i hate doing that but in the last two weeks ago shes been digging in the trash and i stop giving her human food cause she got sick and well ended up using the restroom in the room. She wasn't doing any of that stuff. I take her out 3 times a day and sometimes 4 and she used the restroom in the hallway. I don't think she really learned. But she had been doing really good and now shes acting bad. I dunno if its cause i stopped giving her human food or what. Then when i did that i started giving her dog food cause i want her to be able to eat that. She waited a whole week and i got so worried about her. Now shes back to eating it. But once she starts acting good again. I'll let her sleep with me at night. I know its Probably pretty cold at night when it starts to get colder. I don't leave her all day. It just for the night and then she still hanging out with me during the day. She needs to be able to come out and drink water and play with the other dogs and I think shes food ddicted lol atleast to human food anyways.. Well the Doc picked up my anxieyy meds higer. I was having two attacks last week it was right after another. I was like i can't handle this feeling. I don't wish anything on anyone. Mine is Horriable I mean even if i get it to where i start to feel a little better with out even thinking it just appears. I try to go hang out with my mom and talk to her So that feeling can go away but its just so bad that even that dont help and a while ago i started to feel it again and im like oh no please don't start i can't handle the feeling. I started to work on the wallpapers I wanted them lined up in away where they showed up smaller and then when you click it would show the bigger size. I figured that out and then tested it and Then fixed all the other pages. That seem to help some atleast for now ya know. Amyways im gonna go ahead and get off. I am going to eat my ice cream and watch a movie. Let me know if you like the phone wallpapers. I need some feedback.. Alright hav a good weekend :)

Well November is here..

November 7 2024

Wow November got here pretty fast. Crazy huh. Some of the weather the other day was pretty cool outside so i left my window open and my fan on and went to sleep early but then like today it ended up being super hot and im like where is this cold. But that is Texas for you. So its like you can't decide which clothes to keep out and which ones to leave out lol.. Ugh . Well its been a pretty good week. I went to go see my Mental health doctor. I had to see someone different cause the lady i was seeing i guess she don't work there anymore and that pretty much sucks. So this one is a guy and he seemed to be really nice. He asked if i really have bi polar so That was something he wanted to test out so the bi polar meds i am off until i see him again. I do kind of question if i do have it or not. Because some of it i dont have. Might even be ADHD maybe im not exactly sure. Maybe i am miss diagnoise. Who knows he is the doctor so hopefully we find out what i have. I know its something i judt dont know.. I am very soft spoken. When im supposed to yell i don't lol.. But there is times where i want to be like Mean if i need or want something lol. I hardly ever get after the kids i just laugh at the stuff they do or say.. But i do try to talk to them about whats right and wrong.But thats pretty much all it and then that day my son used all his change to go eat a hamburger at burger king. lol it was such a cute thing he did. The money i was saving for some day a trip to Disney World went to Hamburgers lol.. Tomorrow i am taking them to Taco bell so my mom dont have to cook. But We had a good day and we laughed all day. I guess i must be going through manapouse cause i missed another month of a period. Its nice but at the same time you dont know if its going to come or not. Well i guess thats about it. But if u live close to New york. You better sent me the cold lol or if u are close to being cold or its cold sent it to TEXAS please lol..I really hope you like this new layout. I worked on yet another drawing. I just feel like i wanna be different then all the other layouts.. Hoping to keep this new layout for two or 3 weeks. Or when ever i decide to change it and for now i am happy with all of it. :) i do want to create something amazing i just haven't found that just yet.. Well leave me some love. Talk soon!